After spending so many years on the online ‘recovery community’ I’ve learned two pretty big things: Inpatient treatment is often seen as a guaranteed Cure It isn’t- your attitude is I remember at 17 being told I had a choice between switching from my Tier 3 CAMHS team to Tier 4- or ‘Intensive Treatment’, or… Continue reading Inpatient won’t cure you- your attitude will
I am 17, 18 when someone tells me I am having a panic attack. I am sitting in my therapists office and I start to hyperventilate and my heart is thumping and I think I am going to die. I think the thing with panic attacks is that in movies they are dramatic, over the… Continue reading Brain tornadoes-What are panic attacks like?
TRIGGER WARNING: PURGING/EATING DISORDERS You have just come back from a meal with friends, and it was lovely and you had a nice time. But you feel uncomfortably full. You know it has nothing really to do with food and everything to do with feeling full, being full- full of too many thoughts and feelings… Continue reading TW: Eating Disorders…Glamorous?
My CAMHS notes state that ‘therapy with Alice is a challenge’. My private therapist howled with laughter when I told him. He more than agreed. And I have to concede, it bloody well is. I don’t mean for it to be- or want it to be, and I don’t really understand why it is. But… Continue reading Game Over- Therapy Games
(Apologies in advance for this jumbled nonsensical blog post) I had no idea what to expect when I first arrived on the ward. I remember that Katy Perry was on the radio, that the patients sat round tables and sofas, reading or chatting, hands tucked around a plastic mug of tea. I remember that I… Continue reading The Routine- Life as a psychiatric inpatient
My favourite thing to wake up to is that strange light that seeps through the curtains when there’s snow on the ground. Those winter mornings where condensation slides down the inside of your window and the sky is pale blue and the world looks at peace, draped in a thick white blanket, and you… Continue reading Snow Days, A Year Apart
Hi! A quick lil ‘my story’ I’m Bea, twenty-something and from the UK, and this blog has been a long time coming…I’ve been blogging on tumblr and instagram for a few years now, and after months of thinking about it, I’ve decided I wanted to move to a more public forum and start blogging to… Continue reading Introduction